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Saturday, January 7th, 2006
9:30 pm
Ok so everything seems to be going wrong today! But for the first time i have really took a step back and looked at how i react to things. Half an hour of depression, hours of reflection. I said about a year ago that "i had seen the lowest of my lows, and now all i have is go up". I know i can overcome all of this petty crap, i am such a stronger person now, and i like it! Blah Blah. I will never truely lose anyone i love deeply, and the ones who matter will get me through these times. Im being sooooo melodramatic, it doesn't matter that much but it feels good to be surrounded by this darkness, but see where i can come out on top!

This is me.....

so there for i am

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Current Mood: drained

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Sunday, November 27th, 2005
10:01 pm
I AM A HATER
Alright....i have given into myself...I know acknowledge i am a hater!
I hate a lot of peopl (especially in my line of work)! I hate lots of types of people..like trendy fucks and so on! Why am i a hater? Do i hold myself so much higher than them...not really..i just can't stand to look at them anymore! I have enhightened my critical judgement!Is this so wrong? I don't know...honestly i don't care! I don't care about a lot of shit that used to worry me...and evidently had no first hand effect on me...no fuck that shit...i will hate who ever i want to!

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Friday, September 30th, 2005
1:27 am
Your Birthdate: September 3

Being born on the 3rd day of the month is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.
The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.
There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude.

You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.
Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.
You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.

You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.
You are affectionate and loving, but sometimes too sensitive.
You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

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Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
3:56 pm
GO!
We went walking the other night.....although i was snugly warm and my body was tired! Along the water and down to the powerhouse.....we stood and watched the tap classes *tappa tappa*, then the latin! by the time we left......we had a fair grasp on their rutines heheheheh. I miss being productive! dancing, playing sport....... anything! i love it all....... why spend time dwelling on whats not happening?

Boxing tonight is the beginning....yaaaayy watch out or ill poke you in the eye and tell you how much i could kick you ass heheheh

so here is my testimony to myself...... i will stop putting everything off, because tomorrow will never come! NOW RIGHT NOW I MAKE THE DECISION TO MAKE THE CHANGE.

DO IT NOW>..... DDDOOOO IIIITTTT NNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

Current Mood: bouncy

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Thursday, June 2nd, 2005
10:10 am
CRASH
Having a drink with manda....she expressed how 'Crash' may have possibly been the best movie she had seen HUGE CALL!

So i decided to make that decision for myself.... going blindly into this situation...as i had heard absolutely nothing...AND I MEAN NOTHING about the storyline of Crash.

I met a friend at the end of my day adventure....and got in just in time to catch the movie.

WOW talk about heavy hitting. It was completely about racism in the USA. Stunningly depicted...fantastic writing....afflicting imagery.

The person i was with made a comment of being disinterested and over exaggerated. I was pretty much appalled.....never visiting the US, even i am aware of the immense bigotry...Crash, just making selective sides, some to the extreme, however realistic!

WOW....a must see.... not for the faint hearted.... but for the ones who wish not to be blindfolded!

Current Mood: determined

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Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
8:35 pm
MOTIVATION PROCLOMATION
Ok living life through extremities can be pretty fun...... love the crazy energy and need to be doing everything and anything......so high who needs drugs these days..........hhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm although i still kinda think about them from time to time.......mmmmmmmm at least my stomach no longer turns.......no way is it anymore........hhhoooorrrrraaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

these extreme downs are sending some crazy messages to my body these days....
I have been feeling the most intense pain shooting from my heart and down my arms like a heart attack.....unhappiness is getting pretty startling!

Not that i have much to be unhappy about these days....but memories thoughts you know....... ponder ponder ponder (silently pondering)........is all about my beliefs of the body in connection to the mind..........

I want to be aware.....i really do.......being bread out of ignorance kinda puts a light on my rebellious views...........

IS IGNORANCE BLISS......

Don't try to draw me into this shadowy lie of a life.

Current Mood: blah

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Thursday, April 21st, 2005
8:26 am
hooray for beach
Ok well i hate the people, i hate the sun, i hate the sand, i hate the gunk and shit..........

but wwwooooooooo going surfing with Aly!

No i cannot surf, that will never stop me from getting violently thrashed around in the surf! Yeah Especially on a mini mal/.....
which i had to beg and beg and beg to borrow from my mostly bitter brother!


Well im off to go get burnt..................................

Current Mood: excited

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Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
9:48 pm
WWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooo

Finally weeding the gardens aarrrhahrhahahah love it....like my addictive obsessive compulsive self thriving hehehe......... AWSOME!

Went and got potting mix and white board markers! oh and also rasberry flavoured play dough with a coffee after taste (non-toxic...or so they say) PROGRESS


But aaaarrrrrrrrrr fucking can't find my fiona apple. ravi shankar.........portishead..............bbbbbbbaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh

I never feared losing cd's again...........fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Current Mood: nauseated

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9:12 pm
TAKE THAT.........did you hear me say nothing
IS THIS ALL REAL.......................WOULD YOU TELL THE TRUTH IF NO ONE IS LISTENING?


WHO ARE YOU................AND WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU ABOUT.............



I DON'T HAVE TO EXPLAIN MYSELF TO ANYONE! I KNOW MY ...................
..................................................................SELF



DON'T TRY TO UNDERSTAND!

Current Mood: weird

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8:56 pm
Confliction
Yea so i tried to kinda make a slight act of recognition and kindness............. jerks will be jerks i suppose!

ACTIONS = REACTIONS

i suppose im clumsy with emotions! Though i try not to be........whine whine whine etc! Do i wish to be a robot? ..............would you rather all or none?


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Current Mood: irritated

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Thursday, April 14th, 2005
2:18 pm
AAAARRRRRRRHAHAHAHAHAHAAA WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo

See ya later Maggies you fucks! PINCH ME IN MY DREAMS WHY DON"T YOU
THIS PAIN CAN"T REALY HURT ME.....ITS ALL IN THE SUBCONCIOUS!\

What does it mean when you wake up numerous times within a dream...... i have forgotten and this dream freaked me out beyond belief!

Good morning Fat Boyzzzzzzzzzz

Affirmations may have generated enough energy for results...who would have thaught!


The star house is pretty amazing...however the inevitable of which i tried to ignore is coming about...bout now i am able to address the fucking mess! hehehhehehehehe

I think i will go without groceries this week......bum off maggies......and be a goon slag AAARRRRHAHAHAHAHAH i have never appreciated drinking as much as i do when i know im in secure surroundings,........no more driving for me thank you very much!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: hopeful

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Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
10:42 pm
what a predicament
Well....optimism is the key i suppose!

When something sooo good is found why would you dare throw it away.....

this is a fairy tale remember.....we all live happily ever after...... all the crazy shit settles.


i love the people that get me out of my own crazy head. What would i do without them...............

LLLOOOOVVVVVVEEEEEEEE YYYYYYYYOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: indescribable

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Sunday, March 27th, 2005
3:11 pm
MY RELOCATION
RELOCATION
NEW SALVATION
COMBOBULATION
OF REINCARNATION
PROCLOMATION OF
RECTIFICATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: devious

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Thursday, March 24th, 2005
8:37 am
Tweet Mother Fucker Tweet
you know when you wake up early........stagger around with echoey trudges...gazing through hazy glazed eyes.... not to realize.......i've begun the day way too early!

Getting ready for the day usually consists of half an hours mumbling to myself and some contstrucive activities.....

anyways the garage i have discovered is ssoooooooooooooooo sqeaky and i probably pissed every one off at that ungodly (ha) time of the morning! So i started my journey to the other side of town (about time).

When i reached the geographical equivilant to my parents place i still had another hour and a half till i started work! ARE YOU SERIOUS! i thaught i was so productive.....now im searching for ways to procrastinate...and then prolong them!


well it worked MMMMUUUUUUUHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Current Mood: awake

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Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
8:52 pm
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